I had an amazing day today and I really want to share this adventure with you guys!
I don’t have many photos as my mission was not to capture the nature around me, my intention was to get over my fear. Maybe next time.
It was a beautiful hiking journey I was so afraid to take for so long. I don’t like massive rocks and heights, I am literally getting paralysed by climbing any mountain, even not scary ones. I felt like this new moon cycle was the right time for me to overcome my fears (at least some of them), to really try to go above this and do things I wanted to do for ages but couldn’t. And this “journey” was one of them and I DID IT ! I am so proud at myself. 😍
My head was spinning and my legs were shaking, and trust me it was not only because of the humongous amount of physical exercise but mainly because of that sinister fear telling me that I will fall, break myself or even die. Ridiculous? Well, not for me. However I was strongly determined to do it! Even though one path we picked looked purely suicidal not just for me but even for my highly experienced Spanish mountain hiker chica and at that moment I thought well now even she can see that this is an insane idea and that we should never ever come back. This instant thought angrily crossed my head just a bit before a bigish rock was falling from the top of the rocky hill and almost hit me and little Dietrich while waiting for the rest of the pack to return from trying to figure out where the hell the right path to the desired destination was. Thank goodness we were quicker than the actual falling rock and therefore survived. At that point not only my legs were shaking. When my woman somehow managed to climb down safely ( as I said, experienced chica :) ) I probably already changed several colours in my face and I probably appeared extremely pale when she asked me if I wanted to return home. As I didn’t want to disappoint her and of course myself, I stayed quiet until we got to a safer area where I actually decided to continue on our journey as long as we found a less creepy and suicidal path and we did. Actually Nina our mountain goat, I mean dog found it :). We finally noticed some path signs on the rock so we went ahead confidently. For me, I was doing well (very well in fact) climbing and jumping from one rock to another trying to not to slide down believing that I can do this. I even felt stronger in mind and like I was actually safe, and then I spotted cracked snake eggs at my feet. Frankly, I just had to laugh and somewhere deep inside hope that even though it is sort of boiling for us, that it is not very hot for the snakes (which is by the way my other biggest fear). It was 4pm. We arrived happy to the cala. A very nice and peaceful cove with some abandoned probably fishing cottages.
It was worth it. The sea. The breeze. The views. Reconnection with the self.
I am sharing this to encourage you to go and do things you are scared of because it feels so good ! It feels amazing not to let fear control us. It feels great to be free. If I can do this, you can 100 % do it too! Be safe don’t do silly things but stay smart and open minded and you will get there. No matter what it is, where it is. This walk today has been a most valuable experience for me. I have so many insights and much more courage which I can apply in everyday life.
Let’s live the way we want, we are all capable and strong enough to not let our fears to overpower us.